One sided love. Do you know what it is? It a situation where you are falling in love with a person that doesnt love you back. Means the person on the other side doesnt feel the same like you did. Living for 20 years never make me one sided lover before until recently. I fall for him. Yes him. Unfortunately he does not like me back. I dont know why its must be him. There are so many guys in this world why it have to be him? Solihin. His name is Solihin. 23 years old guy with chinese face. We knows each other for almost year now. I dont know why i like him. Those feelings just came without me knowing. I love seeing his smile. I love seeing his face. I love when he is happy. I just love him for being himself. Being an one sided lover teaches me a lot. Teach me not to put too much hope. Teach me how to be strong. Teach me how to control my feelings. I know being an one sided lover can give you much pain. But i can endure it and all those pain will go away once I look at him. I tried telling him my feelings but he cant accept my feelings. He said "I dont know why i be so heartless like this". Fuck this feeling. Fuck this fucking feelings. I hate you Solihin because I cant stop liking you. I cant stop loving you. Im sorry.